I have been dreading this post. Dreading it. Why? I have to admit my failure and I have to put it in writing forever making the words real and alive. So yes kids, I have failed. But failed what exactly? Let’s explore that shall we?
The past couple of months, I have been in a funk. Yes, I still went to class, but for different reasons, not as many as I would of liked. Different things were going on in my life, stressful things and at the end of the day, I was just plain ol’ exhausted. Mentally and Physically.
I strayed from my path. Like, really strayed. Like, 300 miles from the path. I didn’t take care of myself as I should have. I ate crap. I drank crap. And in the end, you guessed it, I felt like crap.
I gained some weight back and this is no surprise, but its the most painful part of my taking care of myself sabbatical. This month, March 20th to be exact, will be my 1 year anniversary at Befit. I dreamt of this day. I would be skinny. I would have some beautiful pictures taken. I would feel good about myself. I could inspire others. I would make my family proud, and most of all, I would be proud of myself. So yes, of course, as I traveled on this journey, some of these realistically would not be attainable. Such as the skinny part. But as I go along, I was okay with that, knowing I would get there. I was progressing, feeling good, losing weight and getting fit. I really let myself down. Horribly. And this is what hurts the most. I did this to myself. I Did This. No one else. I was a one gal train wreck .
I signed up for the 60 day challenge at my gym. I half assed it. Not proud of it, but I didn’t dedicate myself to my goals as I should have. And here we are near the end and I have no goals accomplished. Again, my own fault. And it stinks.
So, you see, I have failed. Failed myself.
Then I got hit with the stomach bug. 2 days resting, it was a good jump start for some weight loss, lol. And honestly, that is what it became, a jump start. When the bug finally left me, I felt renewed.
Then, this thing happened. Weather intentional or not, it made a difference. My coaches changed the gyms cover picture on Facebook. And who is there in a victory pose? ME. It was taken the day I finished my first run without stopping. It was an amazing feeling. Seeing the picture, I was flooded with all the emotion from that day and all I have accomplished. Maybe it was cause they knew I was in a funk, maybe it was cause the picture fit the area needed, maybe it was divine intervention, but in any case, thank you to my coaches Holly and Jane for giving me the extra boost I needed. Just another reason why my gym and coaches are amazing.
Now more than ever, I need to Just Keep Swimming !
Today it is a new week. It is a new day. I started off awesome. I took the hubs over to the gym here where I live. It was empty which was nice, and they had barbells! I worked on my cleans, my split jerks( I love those) , my back squats and even threw in some dead lifts. I am guessing the bar was 45 lbs, making my work at 65 lbs, except the deadlifts, up to 135 on those. I didn’t want to over do it. The cool part of all of this, was showing my husband different things I do. I showed him different things with the dumb bells that we do in class. Snatches, my fav. Then I showed him the get up sit ups we did the other day. And threw some man makers at him. He actually liked them! Weird, I know. In any case, it felt great working out, and it felt great being able to share with my family.
I am really looking forward to class tomorrow. I am taking a crack at 14.2. Excited and scared. Not expecting much, but I am going to give it my all.
Getting back into the groove and it feels good. Shaking off the past and screw ups and moving forward.
It’s also time for the Weekly One More!
My Weekly One More is to be a better me. I need to be better. We all have something we can improve on. Let’s take it and run with it.
How about you? How have you been doing? Would love to hear about what everyone is up to? Share with us!