Happy 2016 Everyone,
I apologize to the blogosphere for the neglect here. Its bad, I know, I’m sorry.
That being said, here is a little update from my world:
As most of you in my private life know, I have been sick, since, well, Halloween of 2014. I talked about my various health issues back in Bumpy Ride.
Basically, I have been sick since Halloween 2014 and 7 doctors later, we still do not have an answer as to what my issue is. I feel like we are headed in the right direction, but nothing concrete yet.
What we do know:
- I have ” immune deficency “
- I have enlarged lymph nodes and thyroid
- The issues are not the lymph nodes or the thyroid, they are just reacting to what ever is happening
- No Cancer!
- No lyme disease, no lupus, no sarcoid, no mono, no rhumetoid arthritis , no Stills disease, no Castlemans disease
- Medication is working!
That being said, I am ready to resume my life. I have been incredibly sore, like , my armpits hurt. Freaking weird, right? I mean, honestly, they still are sore, but not nearly as bad. I am currently on a medication they give to rhumetoid arthritis patients. At least I am able to function.
Here’s the thing, In the scheme of things, is what I have going on as bad as cancer? Or some terminal disease? Or even something that has required hospitalization? Nope. Even so, not feeling good day after day after day, gets wearing on you . I didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t want to move some days. I needed to get my hair done, didn’t want to . Not because I was being dramatic thinking I had cancer, but just because I didn’t want to do anything and I was going to let those grays run rampant! I needed some new clothes, did not want to get anything, not because new clothes are always an added expense, but just because , I did not want to do anything. I wanted to crawl into a hole, close my eyes and make the pain go away.
This whole process has been an emotionally fueled bad dream. It’s frustrating as hell knowing that my body has been telling me there is something wrong for a year and a half, yet the best doctors in the world cannot tell me what is wrong with me. I had to learn to accept the fact that this is a long process and I may not get an answer ever, certainly not soon. And I did.
It’s funny, I say ” Just Keep Swimming ” all the time to people to boost them, to encourage them, and the one person that forgets , is me. HOW EMBARRASSING!
Once I got the medication to help with the soreness, things started to get into place.
So, now I am managing the soreness. I got my hair done, ( goodbye grays! ) got some new clothes and finally, yes finally, Sweet Baby Jesus, I am ready to get my lard ass into the gym.
The hubs has shown interest in coming to the gym with me, however, we both have different goals and want to do different things. Like, I want to lift weights, CAUSE ITS AWESOME, and he has no desire, so say Planet Fitness would be good for him. It has what he is looking for, Bikes and low impact. Planet Fitness has no interest to me ,not saying its bad by any means, I just know what works for me and I need to do what is right for me. Hopefully we can find a happy medium 🙂
One thing I have learned and have the most trouble forgetting, is that THIS Journey, is about me. And what I want and what makes me happy.
Gotta keep swimming! Hopefully I will be back into the gym in the beginning of March.
Always remember to keep swimming, no matter the journey. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.
How have things been going for you in these past few months? Would love to hear your stories!