I’m THAT mom… and I’m okay with that

Happy Women’s March Day !

 

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The significance of this day has left me with so many thoughts, I just had to share some.

All this talk of Women’s rights is so vital.  If it weren’t for women’s rights, there is no way I could be the person I am today .

This is my body and ain’t no one stopping me from doing what I choose to with it.

I pray I am setting a good example for my daughter to be independent, be strong and to do what makes her happy. I hope these decisions continue to be hers.

I feel I am a hard working , kick ass momma.

I don’t know about you, but I have been seeing so much about ” Super Moms” lately.

You know who I am talking about, Those perfect moms that make it to every performance, every PTA meeting, every field trip, make every lunch (complete with love note ), make every game, take their kids to every birthday party, bakes for every bake sale, sells the most at every fundraiser…. we all know that mom.

I am in no way knocking this, just sharing my thoughts.

But Guess what bitches? It ain’t me.

Yes, I am THAT mom.  I never make it to the field trips , the performances, or any meetings. I make it to most games, we go to some birthday parties, never bake for a sale. And on occasion, we might get some fundraiser sales.

“Good Golly Meg, why are you such a horrible parent?” you may be thinking .

The answer is simple and becoming much much more common. I know there are probably thousands in the same position I am in.

I work. I work full time. Monday – Friday and every other Saturday . And when I am not at work, I am still responding to emails and on occasion taking work related calls.I have a good job and I am taken care of.  I have been with my company for over 10 years. I would say still = 90 % of school functions that we have been invited to are during school hours. How about throwing  us working parents a bone?

I work to provide for my family.  I am not ashamed to say we need two incomes for our family of 5. I am so incredibly thankful for the stability my job has provided us.

And while Working Mom Guilt still gets me every time one of these things come up, I still think of the big picture.

My family has gotten used to the food in their bellies and the roof over their heads.  I’d like to keep it that way . The clothes on their backs, they like those too.

So, while I may not make it to everything and not participate in every school function, I am still their biggest cheerleader in life. I choose to work to make sure they have what they need and them some. If I didn’t work, we would not be going to Disney in April. I would not have the ways and means to do the things that we do together.  Even if it is just going to get ice cream , its creating memories. And I am determined to make sure no matter what , my kids have good memories to look back on .

They may not remember that I didn’t make it to the book fair, but they will remember goofing off with me going for a ride or playing mini golf.

Creating positive lasting memories is what I would like for my kids. I don’t know how I am doing , I’ll probably find out when they have kids.

I’ve been the unconventional mom, I have been the cool mom, I’ve been the asshole mom, I’ve been the young mom

I’ve  been that mom that was the youngest in the room , with my jeans and t shirt on surrounded by the “stepford wives ” .  I got the stares and looks.  Even though our kids were the same age in the same activity ( on the occasion I was able to make it to something) but I had my son at 18 and these folks waited til they were older. Got looks for that too.

I own my shit. I was a young mom. I work full time. I love my family fiercely . I have made bad decisions. I have made good decisions.

I hope that all this talk in the political universe will continue to allow me to be me.

THAT MOM.

A full time working married mom of 3 who is raising 3 incredible, caring , empathetic, creative,  human beings.

Be good to your kids. Be good to your family.  Be good to people.

I am hopeful that the next 4 years do not set us back 50.

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Baby Steps

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Good Evening Everyone !

It is with extreme happiness that I can tell you I finally did it = got my tookus back to the gym!

I got my new medication after my rhumetologist  stepped in  .  It arrived on Friday  and I started the injections that night.

I am still nauseaous, but it is not as much as it was before. I am hopeful that after a few weeks, it will decrease significantly .  The best part is that my doctor okay me getting back to the gym as long as I ” listen to my body “. So, I contacted my coach Jane at       Crossroads Strength and Conditioning to see if it would be okay if I came back with my issues.   And she said of course! Definitly knew that I was going to basically do everything modified but I had to get moving.  ANYTHING is better than nothing, right?!

So, started new meds.

Ready to go back to the gym.

And oh yeah, decided to jump on the Gluten Free train.  Let me explain : I had read multiple articles regarding Gluten and inflammation , so I figure, what the heck, I’ll give it a shot. So far I am on day 3.  Honestly, this is 2 days better than I thought I was going to do.  I’m not sure how long that I can keep it going, but if it helps, I am going to give it a whirl.

I got back into the gym and the warm up itself was already killing me , lol.  Onto the workout : here is my severly modified version .  No laughing out loud, 🙂

4 rounds

30 wall throws ( like the baby sister of the wall ball ) just tossed the ball at the wall

20 Step ups on the little box

10 DB snatches!!!! 15l bs —–> I LOVE SNATCHES! AND I COULD DO THESE NOT MODIFIED!!!

5 Push ups – these I did standing up leaning into the bar on the rack.  Truth be told, I totally could feel this in my arms and chest way more than any pushups I had done before.

I completed all 4 rounds – total victory ! And under 20 minutes!

This was complete baby steps.  And this will be for quite some time, I am sure.  This time around , I need to do the baby steps.  I used to get really frustrated when I thought of how far I had come or how much I could lift or do, but this time, I can’t be like that .  It’s wasted energy.  I am just going to roll with it and see how it goes.

Its been a productive week so far.  Hoping to get back in the gym tomorrow. Starting slow with 2 times a week.

Gotta Keep Swimming !!!!

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Happy New Year!

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Happy New Year Everyone!

I’ll admit, I have been quite miserable the last few months.  Throwing a personal pity party for myself.  I’m sore, I’m cranky, my appetite is horrendous, medication makes me sick….I have been just ugh.

Welp, I am really going to try and change this around.

I need to honestly, or at least dedicate myself to dealing with this chronic pain better.

For those keeping track, we are on 2 years of my body telling me something is wrong and no doctors being able to figure it out.

Current symptoms include: all over body soreness, painful arm pits ( yes arm pits) , side pain ,chest pain,  my  ” necklace of pain” ( my throat and collar bone area ) , crazy night sweats, fire skin and crazy appetite.

First off, gotta get my meds under control . The metheltrexate i am on is really helping my knees and the arthritis that developed in them , however the medication makes me soooooo nauseous every day ! like every day! i wake up and just want to barf, but i never do, its awful. I just sit and wait for it to pass.  Then there is the Prednisone…. ugh, why do they make it so it helps you feel better but you become a ravenous pig?

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Anyone else have that issue with metheltrexate?  Or Prednisone?

So, my doctors solution to that was changing it to an injectable one, however since i have no “official ” diagnosis and Meganitis is not a recognized disease anywhere, my insurance rejected it.

Ugh. So i was going back and forth with my doctor in messages and getting no where, so I have an appt this Weds. Hopefully I can get on the right path here.

I also am DYING to work out. To say my weight has increased would be a complete understatement, I don’t even recognize myself. I was going to get back at the gym, but then I needed another PET scan and my doctor told me to hold off starting back up .

But, now I NEED to do something. So , I am hoping I can get the ok to start back up , even if its small, and hoping he can do something to offset the appetite.

I never realized just how many people out there are dealing with chronic pain, be it from fibromyalgia, RA or any type of Arthritis , MS, cancers, its really nuts how many people are in the world suffering right now. It’s incredible .

We all find our way to get through the day.  One thing that I have found to help with my daily routine is Plexus. It has been beyond incredible.

They only have a small amount of products, but they have been awesome.  The Plexus Slim, The Ease , The Nerve ,  they are all so helpful to me daily. My pain has yet to be eliminated but, it definitely takes the edge off.

Honestly, I catch a lot of shit from people for promoting Plexus, but if they had any idea how much it has truly truly helped me, they would understand. Thats why I share it all the time, if there is someone out there like me ( based on my research there are thousands) that could benefit from these products, as a human , It is my job to share it.

 

Since I am hoping to be able to start doing some sort of exercise again, looking for feedback from the folks out there suffering from chronic pain. What do you do ? Or do you find that it is too difficult to do anything ? There has got to  be something I can do .

Here’s to making 2017 a great year!

Blessings and love to you all!

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