Sometimes you surprise yourself

Happy Easter Folks!   Sometimes you surprise yourself, I think that is really the best surprise .  I was at the gym 3 times this week .  Did some new stuff and did things that honestly going into it , … Continue reading

A Most Excellent Week Indeed

Happy Saturday Everyone!

I gotta say, I have really had such a great week, all around.

Back in the gym 3 nights this week.  Sore today from it , but its the good sore 🙂  Not the bad sore I have been experiencing the last year or so .

 

Wednesday was Lift Day, as you know – MY FAVORITE! And it was dead lifts!!! I was very happy with how I did , but it just drove home that I am starting over and I have to let the numbers and how I used to be able to do things, go. And I used to get really frustrated with that, but now, I am in a much better place with it.  Would I have loved to go in and rock a 220 lb Deadlift smashing my goal? Of course, but I was very happy I made it up to 95 lbs.

Starting over and that’s okay.

Here is how I did Wednesday :

5 sets 10 reps sit to stand squats on low box – yes, folks – we are reduced to squatting on a box.  But it is totally okay, cause honestly the struggle with it was REAL.  I was dying. So, it is most definitely a good place to start.

 

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Onto dead lifts :

10 @55lbs

8 @65 lbs

6 @75lbs

4 @85lbs

2 @95lbs!

Then there was 3 rounds of accessory work :

10 trx rows

10 resistance band pulls – supposed to be bench dips but i had a hard time with that

Planks! i did about 20 seconds on each one

 

Here is how I did Thursday :

I got some new sneakers for the gym, that did not work out so well. They were too big and my feet were literally coming out of them while rowing. So the rest of the workout was barefoot.  Never stop Swimming!

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4 rounds

500 m row

17 TRX lunges

17 push ups

17 v ups ( or what ever you call my version, lol, to the knee)

I finished in 30:54 , cap was 35:00 so I was really happy that I got it done in time, even modified.

 

Excited to go back next week.  This is what I need, I just need to do my part and actually go.

 

This week – I am happy to report that I have done awesome with my no soda, no bread , no pasta changes.  It may not seem big to some people, but believe me, It is HUGE for me.

Overall, things are pretty great at the moment.  I kept on swimming, and I will continue to swim.  Hope you do too, no matter what the situation.

Have a great weekend everyone!

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Just Keep On Swimming

Happy 2016 Everyone,

I apologize to the blogosphere for the neglect here.  Its bad, I know, I’m sorry.

That being said, here is a little update from my world:

As most of you in my private life know, I have been sick, since, well, Halloween of 2014.  I talked about my various health issues back in Bumpy Ride.

Basically, I have been sick since Halloween 2014 and 7 doctors later, we still do not have an answer as to what my issue is.  I feel like we are headed in the right direction, but nothing concrete yet.

What we do know:

  • I have ” immune deficency “
  • I have enlarged lymph nodes and thyroid
  • The issues are not the lymph nodes or the thyroid, they are just reacting to what ever is happening
  • No Cancer!
  • No lyme disease, no lupus, no sarcoid, no mono, no rhumetoid arthritis , no Stills disease, no Castlemans disease
  • Medication is working!

 

That being said, I am ready to resume my life. I have been incredibly sore, like , my armpits hurt.  Freaking weird, right? I mean, honestly, they still are sore, but not nearly as bad. I am currently on a medication they give to rhumetoid arthritis patients. At least I am able to function.

Here’s the thing, In the scheme of things, is what I have going on as bad as cancer? Or some terminal disease? Or even something that has required hospitalization? Nope.  Even so, not feeling good day after day after day, gets wearing on you .  I didn’t want to do anything.  I didn’t want to move some days.  I needed to get my hair done, didn’t want to . Not because I was being dramatic thinking I had cancer, but just because I didn’t want to do anything and I was going to let those grays run rampant! I needed some new clothes, did not want to get anything, not because new clothes are always an added expense, but just because , I did not want to do anything. I wanted to crawl into a hole, close my eyes and make the pain go away.

This whole process has been an emotionally fueled bad dream.  It’s frustrating as hell knowing that my body has been telling me there is something wrong for a year and a half, yet the best doctors in the world cannot tell me what is wrong with me. I had to learn to accept the fact that this is a long process and I may not get an answer ever, certainly not soon.  And I did.

It’s funny, I say ” Just Keep Swimming ” all the time to people to boost them, to encourage them, and the one person that forgets , is me. HOW EMBARRASSING!

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Once I got the medication to help with the soreness, things started to get into place.

So, now I am managing the soreness.  I got my hair done, ( goodbye grays! ) got some new clothes and finally, yes finally, Sweet Baby Jesus, I am ready to get my lard ass into the gym.

The hubs has shown interest in coming to the gym with me, however, we both have different goals and want to do different things.  Like, I want to lift weights, CAUSE ITS AWESOME, and he has no desire, so say Planet Fitness would be good for him. It has what he is looking for,  Bikes and low impact. Planet Fitness has no  interest to me ,not saying its bad by any means, I just know what works for me and I need to do what is right for me.  Hopefully we can find a happy medium 🙂

One thing I have learned and have the most trouble forgetting, is that THIS Journey, is about me. And what I want and what makes me happy.

Gotta keep swimming! Hopefully I will be back into the gym in the beginning of March.

Always remember to keep swimming, no matter the journey. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.

How have things been going for you in these past few months? Would love to hear your stories!

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Just Know I Say I Love You And Hello Forever

” Just Know I Say I Love You And Hello Forever ”   is one of the last coherent things my sweet Gram said to me.  She was in CCU at the hospital and she knew she was getting ready to take her final journey.  It means so much to me, that I got it tattooed on my forearm, so I can always look at it and she will always be right within arms reach.

My Gram Tattoo

Thanksgiving is spent at Gram and Gramp’s house every year.  I have been dreading it.  I know as soon as I walk in that house and she is not at the stove, and then not at her chair, I am going to be a puddle.  I have been trying to prepare myself as best I can, but I am failing.  I miss her so very much.  I’m kinda hoping that writing this today will help me.

Honestly, its not like I have not dealt with loss before,  I have.  Plenty of folks have left us for better places. I just miss her so terribly.

It’s no secret I love bread .  I love my rolls too.  And every year I would walk in and Gram would say to me  how she got some nice rolls  for dinner.  That came across my mind yesterday and I lost it.  It’s funny how the little things bring back the most memories.

I know the best way to handle it and to honor her is to go today so we can all be together like she would of wanted.  I just wish she was here instead.  Not to mention, this will all happen again on Christmas Eve because that is another holiday spent at their house.

So – to honor my Gram I am sharing with you some photos of this amazing woman.  Things that bring such joy to me when I see them.

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4 Generations

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These are just some of the pictures I have .  Gram loved all of us so very much and she made sure we always knew it.

I am blessed.  I am honored.  I am thankful. I am lucky.  I had 35 years with an incredible woman in my corner.  My children had the rarity of having a long relationship with a great grandparent, who she adored and they adored her.  My husband got another grandmother.  My friends got another grandmother.

She was everyone’s Gram.  That was so evident during her services.

On Thanksgiving , she would always make sure everyone had a plate to eat before she would even allow anyone to prepare anything for her.  I feel like I should bring her a plate today , and maybe I will.

Hug your loved ones tight, let them know how much you love them, EVERYDAY.

No matter how old they are , no matter how sick, no matter how healthy, no matter how far you are.  Let those you love know they are loved.

 

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone,

Meg

 

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Looking forward to 2016 with open arms

Happy Sunday World!

How has everyone been since August ? Yes, I know, August.  Safe to say 2015 has been a complete crap shoot for me.  Between being sick, moving , my Gram passing, and just life, this year has sucked it hardcore.  My fitness has taken a definite back seat, but I need to get it driving auto pilot.  The tendonitis I developed in my foot isn’t helping either, but I can ‘t be like this.  I literally do not recognize myself when I look in the mirror.

Being overweight, or morbidly obese, I know I have said it before , but it is almost like you don’t see yourself, so you don’t face it everyday.  If that makes sense.  Like, Everything looks the same to me, but I don’t look the same to everyone. So, to me, it almost feels like I haven’t changed, but yet there is this drastic change that everyone can see. ( I hope this makes sense to someone other than me)

So, what am I gonna do about this? All talk no action, right? I know, I suck.

Well, actually , my husband has decided he wants to get fit as well, which is great. We are trying to find something that will work for both of us so we can do together.  I am looking forward to it.  We just need to agree on what we are going to do.  I know what works for me.  But what works for me, he has never done in any way shape or form, but he does have things he likes to do , so finding the balance is what we need to do.

The next month will be crazy with the holidays, so I thought instead of filling you with my tales of overweight woe, I would share some holiday stuff or just daily stories , then get into the fitness stuff in the new year.

The Holidays are a time to be happy, not a time to be depressed that I am still a Fatty McButterpants.  So I am not going to be.

I am GOING TO KEEP SWIMMING!

I’m 35, I have a wonderful family and that is all I need to make my life bright.  The rest is just gravy.  I am not going to stress that I have not hit any goals I set for myself this year.  And honestly, I think I may not even set a goal for myself next year.  Who knows.

Just gonna roll with it and see what the universe sends my way 🙂

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Much love and blessings to all of you that keep coming on the swim.  I know its been a slow process following my journey, but hey, that’s life , right?

 

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Sweaty Eyeballs

First off –

Remembered my sneakers for Wednesdays workout, lol

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I gotta say folks, I am sore as hell today, but it is THE best feeling.  I worked my ass off this week and I am so happy to be back into my rhythm.

It’s amazing how much I missed it.  I know this is the right way for me to go and as long as I keep going, everything else will fall into place.

Wednesday was a strength day.  Overhead Squats were the nemesis.

Now, I can’t say for certain, but as much as I recall, I could never really do OHS with weight , I usually did them with a dowel or training bar.  Well my friends, my 1 Rep Max was 35 lbs!  I know, not much, but for me this is astounding! The other gals in class got much higher, one was even 100 lbs!  Incredible to watch #girlsthatlift.

My OHS.  Still a ways to go, but progress is progress!

My OHS. Still a ways to go, but progress is progress!

 

After the 1 Rep Max, it was onto the workout.  You guessed it, more OHS.  But this time, it was 100 OHS for time.  Yup.  100.  And every time the bar hit the floor, it was a 10 sit up penalty.  For this portion of the workout, I used the dowel.  But honestly, it wasn’t any easier.  It sucked.  I found myself putting the dowel down to do the sit ups as a break.  It was hard and I was sweating out my eyeballs, lol.

Here are my numbers from the 100 OHS

Finished in 9:44

Did 100 OHS

Did 40 sit ups

Me with my “cool towel” post workout . I was dying!

 

 

 

Thursday was hard.  Even sweatier eyeballs tonight!

It was an AMRAP in 20 minutes.

5 Power Hang Snatch

7 HSPU

25 Double unders/ 50 singles

That is how it was supposed to be done.  Here is my modified version :

5 Power Hang Snatch 35 lbs

7 Modified HSPU – pike position

50 singles

Our goal for this was at least 5 rounds.  My arms were not as bad as I thought they were going to be from the OHS —- until I started.  I banged through the 1st round now prob, then the 2nd round, it was a little harder.  By the 3rd round, we decided the 35 lbs looked too easy and I tried 45 lbs.  I did the round with the 45lbs but boy-o was it a challenge! I went back to the 35lbs for the rest of the rounds.

For this workout – I got 7 rounds and 5 reps!!!! Goal was 5  rounds .  I think 7 rounds of anything in 20 minutes is pretty freaking good!

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My Chips – 5 white for the Goal rounds – 2 blue for the extra rounds!

 

Chips are funny. I look at them as accomplishments .  I know to some they mean nothing at all, but when I look at these  7 chips, I am so damn proud.

How about you? How was your week? I’d love to hear about it!

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Puke. Cry. Fart.

Tonight I had several moments during my workout when I wanted to Puke, to Cry and to Fart.

I didn’t know which way to go , lol.  Needless to say, I held it together.  How, honestly, I have no idea.  What type of ridiculous, hell inducing , spawn of Satan work out was this, you ask?

2 Words.

 

WALLBALLS

 

OH SWEET BABY JESUS.  This was a wicked hard one.  I had sweat coming out of my eyeballs.

Here is the workout and how I did:

It was 3 AMRAP’s. Yes 3 .

#1 AMRAP in 7 minutes

4 Hang Cleans 55 lbs

12 Wall Balls 6 lbs.

Go ahead and laugh at the 6 lbs, but sweet baby, those were the heaviest 6 lbs ever, I swear.

I got 4 rounds and 11 reps on this one.

#2 AMRAP in 6 minutes

3 Hang Cleans 60 lbs

12 Wall Balls 6 lbs

I got 3 rounds and 4 reps

#3 AMRAP in 5 minutes

2 Hang Cleans 65 lbs

12 Wall Balls 6 lbs

I got 2 rounds and 8 reps

 

Like I said I wanted to puke , cry and fart at various points through this workout.  It was a killer for sure.  My back was hurting so bad, which I am sure is a sign I had bad form, but I still kept going.

 

All in all, I am very happy with my performance.  I think I did pretty darn good.  I am so very sore right now, but I am feeling so great,  Getting back at it and nothing is gonna stop me now.

And did I mention, I did this whole workout in my socks.  I forgot my sneakers!

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No Sneakers ! No Problem! Just Keep Swimming!

Cannot let anything get in my way!

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Shit Happens – It is how you deal with it that defines us

Happy Sunday Everyone!

It’s been almost 2 months since my last post.  Let me explain, here goes…

The past 2 months have been tough.  My beloved Gram took a turn for the worse, and on July 22, she made her final journey.  At exactly 90 1/2 years old, she lived a long wonderful life.  I have been so very lucky to have had my Gram for 35 years.  My children had a relationship with their great-grandmother.  I know so many people who don’t have that, who have never had that.  We really are so fortunate, but, it doesn’t make it hurt any less.  I miss her terribly.  I always will.  But I know she is up there looking down and making sure we are okay.

 

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So, how does this play into my journey?  Things don’t always work the way we plan.  We have to adjust.  We have to regroup.  I planned on getting back into my routine.  I didn’t plan on going to the hospital all the time.  I didn’t plan on being at the hospice everyday.  Would I change a second of it? Or regret my decision ? Absolutely not.  As much as my physical health I am working on, my mental health is important too.   Being there for the end with my sweet Gram means more to me .

And that is okay.  Shit Happens to all of us.  Something derails us for whatever reason – big or small.  But you get through it.  You can’t let the shit be the end of your journey.  Honestly, this whole year of mine has been Shit.  But, you know what? I am here.  Still trying.  Still moving .

Still swimming.

So, here I am .  Still going.  More weight on than ever before.  I feel like I am bursting out of my skin.  And now that the dust has settled,   Its time to get back at it.  This week I got in 2 workouts and started watching what I eat.

I feel great.

Wednesday I worked on Front Squats.  My 1 Rep Max was 90 lbs.  I know this is not my best, but I will keep working at it.  Squats are always something I struggle with.

After the front squats it was time for a complex.  Power Cleans x Hang Cleans x Front Squat – I did this at 55 lbs.  I was so glad I could do this with actual weight added to the bar.  I have been out of it and not working out regularly , basically the whole year.  So, for me to be able to feel confident in the weight, it was awesome.

Thursday was 2 work outs in 1 class.  Coach Jane took some videos of me as I was working out.  For the life of me, I cannot get them to load to this post.  If I can figure out, I will post later.

1st workout was :

3 rounds 1 minute each

Alt DB snatch – 20 lbs. I used to be able to do 35 lbs.  But when I picked up the 20 lb DB, I was like , oh man, its gonna hurt! I made it through, but boy that 20lbs got heavier and heavier

 

Row – I made it to 100 meters each time

Wall climb hold – this was supposed to be a handstand hold, And I geared myself up for it, but I was a mental case and could not get myself to commit and go down for the handstand.  I opted for the wall climb hold.  It was a lot more difficult with all this extra weight on.  My last round , I thought my arms were going to snap.  They were shaking like crazy.

The 2nd workout was at the park down the street.

Walking lunges, suicide sprints, wall balls, mountain climbers.  All while dodging the goose droppings all over the place.

Have you ever had a moment when you realized that you changed?  For me, no matter what the size, I have always been self conscious.  If it thought something was too tight, or didn’t look good on me, I would not go out in it.  So, how did I know I ‘ve changed?

There I was – in my workout gear.  Rolls and fat and sweat and all.  Outside in public.  Busting my ass to complete the workout.

And not one shit was given.

I am finally in a place where I feel we are moving past this shitty year and resuming normal life. Rising above our challenges  is never easy.  But we cannot let it have the last word.  Shit happens.  Life Happens.   It’s how you chose to deal with it.  I choose to keep going.

What about you?  How do you handle it when shit happens?  Is it the end of the world? Do you move on?  How do you rise above?

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