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Happy Sunday Everyone!
It’s been almost 2 months since my last post. Let me explain, here goes…
The past 2 months have been tough. My beloved Gram took a turn for the worse, and on July 22, she made her final journey. At exactly 90 1/2 years old, she lived a long wonderful life. I have been so very lucky to have had my Gram for 35 years. My children had a relationship with their great-grandmother. I know so many people who don’t have that, who have never had that. We really are so fortunate, but, it doesn’t make it hurt any less. I miss her terribly. I always will. But I know she is up there looking down and making sure we are okay.
So, how does this play into my journey? Things don’t always work the way we plan. We have to adjust. We have to regroup. I planned on getting back into my routine. I didn’t plan on going to the hospital all the time. I didn’t plan on being at the hospice everyday. Would I change a second of it? Or regret my decision ? Absolutely not. As much as my physical health I am working on, my mental health is important too. Being there for the end with my sweet Gram means more to me .
And that is okay. Shit Happens to all of us. Something derails us for whatever reason – big or small. But you get through it. You can’t let the shit be the end of your journey. Honestly, this whole year of mine has been Shit. But, you know what? I am here. Still trying. Still moving .
So, here I am . Still going. More weight on than ever before. I feel like I am bursting out of my skin. And now that the dust has settled, Its time to get back at it. This week I got in 2 workouts and started watching what I eat.
I feel great.
Wednesday I worked on Front Squats. My 1 Rep Max was 90 lbs. I know this is not my best, but I will keep working at it. Squats are always something I struggle with.
After the front squats it was time for a complex. Power Cleans x Hang Cleans x Front Squat – I did this at 55 lbs. I was so glad I could do this with actual weight added to the bar. I have been out of it and not working out regularly , basically the whole year. So, for me to be able to feel confident in the weight, it was awesome.
Thursday was 2 work outs in 1 class. Coach Jane took some videos of me as I was working out. For the life of me, I cannot get them to load to this post. If I can figure out, I will post later.
1st workout was :
3 rounds 1 minute each
Alt DB snatch – 20 lbs. I used to be able to do 35 lbs. But when I picked up the 20 lb DB, I was like , oh man, its gonna hurt! I made it through, but boy that 20lbs got heavier and heavier
Row – I made it to 100 meters each time
Wall climb hold – this was supposed to be a handstand hold, And I geared myself up for it, but I was a mental case and could not get myself to commit and go down for the handstand. I opted for the wall climb hold. It was a lot more difficult with all this extra weight on. My last round , I thought my arms were going to snap. They were shaking like crazy.
The 2nd workout was at the park down the street.
Walking lunges, suicide sprints, wall balls, mountain climbers. All while dodging the goose droppings all over the place.
Have you ever had a moment when you realized that you changed? For me, no matter what the size, I have always been self conscious. If it thought something was too tight, or didn’t look good on me, I would not go out in it. So, how did I know I ‘ve changed?
There I was – in my workout gear. Rolls and fat and sweat and all. Outside in public. Busting my ass to complete the workout.
And not one shit was given.
I am finally in a place where I feel we are moving past this shitty year and resuming normal life. Rising above our challenges is never easy. But we cannot let it have the last word. Shit happens. Life Happens. It’s how you chose to deal with it. I choose to keep going.
What about you? How do you handle it when shit happens? Is it the end of the world? Do you move on? How do you rise above?
It has been a great week for me work out wise. Right now, we are in the middle of a snow storm, so I figured it was a great time to tell you all about it.
I worked out 3x this week. Trying to get back into the groove is both hard and humbling. But, boy, was I happy to get in 3x .
Wednesday was strength day. Here is how I did:
Overhead Squats – On The Minute for 10 minutes.
4 reps each minute – I had to use the training bar. 15 lbs and it was hard. Sweet Baby. Its amazing how just being out of it, really for 6 months, affects your body and how much it ” forgets”.
The humbling didn’t stop there. Then it was on to the workout portion.
10 step ups r/l —> 18 lbs
10 Bend over rows —>18 lbs
10 Strict Press —> 12.5 lbs. 12.5 freaking tiny pounds. Good Lord. The worst part was it was a struggle. It was hard for me.
That really sealed the deal, that I am starting from the beginning again. And that is okay. I always say this is a journey. It really is. Ups, downs, beginnings, endings, restarts. Its all good.
4 min Amrap
3 wall climbs
6 Burpee Box Jumps
50 single jumps – I was able to do some double unders 🙂
I got through 1 round and 3 reps
6 min Amrap
4 wall climbs
8 Burpee Box Jumps
50 single jumps
I got through 1 round and 5 reps
8 Min Amrap
5 wall climbs
10 Burpee Box Jumps
50 Single jumps
I got through 1 round and 8 reps
I was really happy that I increased my reps each round as well as I was able to complete 1 full round each set. I just had to keep moving.
Here we come to the name of todays post.
In this class we worked on Front Squats and Squat Cleans. I always struggle with the squats. That is no secret. I thought I did pretty good at my cleans. I learned, not so much. I always struggle to get my elbows up. We broke down the clean and I finally got it right. It feels so much different. I call it the ” Chicken Wing Method” Cause you gotta bring your elbows up like chicken wings. What ever you gotta do, right? Hey, it worked ! They used to tell me the same way and say the same things, but this time it clicked, better late than never.
Here is the workout that followed:
15 Front Squats 25 lbs
25 bar Hops
10 Push Press 25 lbs
15 Squat cleans 25 lbs
25 bar hops
10 Push press 25 lbs
25 bar hops
15 Front Squats 25 lbs
The bar was a little too high for me to jump over right now, so I used a hurdle. I could jump over the bar any way I wanted. Mostly I did lateral hops, but to have some fun as I do. I went into ” Elegant Gazelle” mode. What do you think? lol
Yes, I am a goof ball. But, if you can’t have fun, then why bother? And I know what you are thinking…. panty line. Right? Not that my fat ass isn’t big enough on its own, but that big ol line across it doesn’t make it look smaller. Anyways…I’m a Fatty McButter trying to be less fatty right now. There is not sugar coating it. I got shit to work on. And I am okay with that.
To quote my fav – Stuart Smalley …. ” I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and gosh darn it, people like me! ”
If you don’t know who Stuart Smalley is, check out the link above. Serious SNL gold.
It really was a great week. I have some long term goals I am working on. More on those next post.
Until then, Keep Swimming folks!
Did I say UGH?
Cause what I meant was UGH.
Let me just start off by saying how ugh I am right now . I am so incredibly pissed at myself and Wednesday nights workout was the icing on the damn cake .
I realize I have sucked lately , I am trying to get my groove back and failing miserably . I am trying to eat better and get this extra weight off that I put back on , I think I’m doing good and bam! Wednesday failure , fucking ugh . And I have no one to blame but myself but, throw me a fricken bone here !
So yesterday , here’s what happened:
Wednesdays workout was :
1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10 thrusters (I used 60 lbs)
20-18-16-14-12-10-8-6-4-2 box jumps ( I used 12″ box with 45 lb plate )
So it was thrusters, box jumps , thrusters , box jumps , you get the idea. I love box jumps , since I have been able to get on the box , it is my most favorite move , by far . So I was pumped for this , figured I could finish this in the time given. Thrusters would suck but I could do this . Timer goes off and we start going . For as long as I can remember when ever I do any sort of physical activity, my face gets red, I can feel it. Always been that way . This was an intense workout so of course I am going to be red. I didn’t think too much of it when my coach Jane came over to check on me , they usually check in with everyone , we get amazing personal attention . But as the workout went on , I could tell I was off , way off , to the point where I knew I had to stop. I was fighting back tears because I once again let myself down on something I CAN do and do pretty well. I stood by the window to get some fresh air and Jane checks in on me again and tells me I have gone from ” bright red to gray” a hilarious thought actually but serious and shitty . I sat down , I was shaking , trying to breathe / catch my breath. I just sat there and watched the rest of the class finish . My friend Jen, grabbed me a protein bar and it hit me that I hadn’t eaten much that day . I wolfed that sucker down . What a fuckin idiot I was , I was doing this workout and only ate a bowl of American chop Suey the whole day ! So stupid !
I feel like I am constantly failing myself and its driving me nuts. This journey is all me. No one decides this – just me. It is so mental its crazy. I have been stuck and I swear its tar. I was so upset driving home.
But, it was just one workout. One day. As much as I feel stuck and frustrated, the old me would of been derailed. So, what did I do?
I went right back to class Thursday and was psyched!
Thursday I finished my workout in time and PR’d my Front Squats! Oh Fucking Yeah!
Here is how I did:
Front Squat Strength 5×3
3 x 65lbs, 3 x 65 lbs, 3 x 75 lbs, 3x 75 lbs, 3 x 80 lbs! <————— PR BABY!!!
Workout for Time
5 Ring Dips
25 Double unders
I am still on the green band to assist with my dips, but I was finally able to lock my arms and keep the rings closer to me. It felt great! The DU, Coach Holly let me use her speed rope. Boy! I did so much better than I have done lately with them. I whipped the shit out of myself, but I did more DU’s than I have in such a long time, it felt so good.
Now, the ultimate sign, that yes, I am growing and changing. Today my office got take out from Kelly’s Roast Beef. A Boston classic. I have written before about their cheesy fries. Good Lord are they delicious. I opted for the grilled chicken sandwich. Yes, I suppose a salad would of been the healthiest choice, but for me, resisting the cheesy fries as they danced in front of me, tray after tray after delicious tray, was a VICTORY.
I have to keep swimming along, if I don’t , I am going to sink to the bottom, and AIN’T NO BODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!
For those who have seen the Sweet Brown Video – enjoy. If you have not seen it, check it out. It is Hilarious!