Gotta Run on Marathon Monday

Most of you are aware , I’m a Massachusetts gal . Masshole through and through .

3 years ago Boston was attacked by 2 cowardly brothers at the Boston Marathon . So many people hurt and maimed and in the end , 4 souls lost . Boston is not to be messed with , we literally shut the city down to find these assholes . And they did . And while only 1 of them is answering for their heinous crimes , thousands have risen above with their courageous will,  to show that we will not be brought down by hatred .

All this being said , yesterday was Marathon Monday here in Boston . Since I started working out , every Marathon Monday , the workout has a running element . Yesterday was no different , but in so many ways – for me – it was .

We all know my struggles with running . Since I resumed working out this year , I haven’t run . I’ve been rowing instead . But how could I not run in Marathon Monday ? So , I figured , I gotta run .

The workout was great .

It was an Amrap in 26.2 mins .  I completed 3 rounds ( def went over time, but not by much)

4 wall climbs – can I just tell you ? I got up there ! I didn’t think I would be able to move my legs up the wall . Now , of course , I wasn’t flush up the wall or able to move my hands back , but hot damn ! I was on the wall ! And it wasn’t even the struggle I remember .  Victory

18 wall balls – I don’t even know what weight I had , but these seem to come easier to me than they did before . Still hard , don’t get me wrong , but I keep moving.

16 Burpees – these were modified , but even then , these were still hard for me

26 lunges – I having some knee issues lately, my best guess is all this weight has caught up with me, I just need to work at it and get the weight off. I am sure they will stop bothering me. Anyways, I did reverse lunges on the TRX. And while modified, man did those kill.

Then – you guessed it. dun dun dunnnnnnn…….. THE RUN

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The run was 200 m . I completed the first one. Slow and Steady , not really a run, or a jog, but faster than a walk.  I was almost back when my calves started burning which was always my issue.  So, the next 2 runs, it was modified, so it was almost 200 m, prob more like 175 or 150. Anyways, I had to do it. As I am there dying, trying to not stop, all I could think about was there were people who literally lost  limbs completing the marathon. Folks who lost so much in the bombing and they are running 26 miles, and my fat ass can’t even jog 200 meters? Sweet Baby Jesus. I suck.   Between that and my ” Just Keep Swimming ” mantra, I finished. 3 runs, 3 rounds. And I did not stop.  I think that was the part that I was the most ” like wow” about .  I completed each “run”  without walking.  For me, this is GINORMOUS. Freaking Huge.

I was really thinking about this as I was doing the workout.  This time around, I feel like all these moves are coming easier to me. Even with the modifications, maybe that’s why.  Its still a struggle to do things, and honestly, I hope it always is, as I get better , more fluid with it and able to do things fully .  I feel so much more accomplished this time around.  Even Coach Jane was saying I am more confident.

And I really am.  Weird for me. To be confident in anything is quite different for me.  I have the worst self esteem and always have.  I think the worst of myself.  I am working on it. Working on me. And truth be told, I kinda like who I am right now and where I am going. I’m trying and I guess that is the best I can do .

Gotta keep at it! Looking forward to Lift Day on Wednesday!

 

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Shit Happens – It is how you deal with it that defines us

Happy Sunday Everyone!

It’s been almost 2 months since my last post.  Let me explain, here goes…

The past 2 months have been tough.  My beloved Gram took a turn for the worse, and on July 22, she made her final journey.  At exactly 90 1/2 years old, she lived a long wonderful life.  I have been so very lucky to have had my Gram for 35 years.  My children had a relationship with their great-grandmother.  I know so many people who don’t have that, who have never had that.  We really are so fortunate, but, it doesn’t make it hurt any less.  I miss her terribly.  I always will.  But I know she is up there looking down and making sure we are okay.

 

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So, how does this play into my journey?  Things don’t always work the way we plan.  We have to adjust.  We have to regroup.  I planned on getting back into my routine.  I didn’t plan on going to the hospital all the time.  I didn’t plan on being at the hospice everyday.  Would I change a second of it? Or regret my decision ? Absolutely not.  As much as my physical health I am working on, my mental health is important too.   Being there for the end with my sweet Gram means more to me .

And that is okay.  Shit Happens to all of us.  Something derails us for whatever reason – big or small.  But you get through it.  You can’t let the shit be the end of your journey.  Honestly, this whole year of mine has been Shit.  But, you know what? I am here.  Still trying.  Still moving .

Still swimming.

So, here I am .  Still going.  More weight on than ever before.  I feel like I am bursting out of my skin.  And now that the dust has settled,   Its time to get back at it.  This week I got in 2 workouts and started watching what I eat.

I feel great.

Wednesday I worked on Front Squats.  My 1 Rep Max was 90 lbs.  I know this is not my best, but I will keep working at it.  Squats are always something I struggle with.

After the front squats it was time for a complex.  Power Cleans x Hang Cleans x Front Squat – I did this at 55 lbs.  I was so glad I could do this with actual weight added to the bar.  I have been out of it and not working out regularly , basically the whole year.  So, for me to be able to feel confident in the weight, it was awesome.

Thursday was 2 work outs in 1 class.  Coach Jane took some videos of me as I was working out.  For the life of me, I cannot get them to load to this post.  If I can figure out, I will post later.

1st workout was :

3 rounds 1 minute each

Alt DB snatch – 20 lbs. I used to be able to do 35 lbs.  But when I picked up the 20 lb DB, I was like , oh man, its gonna hurt! I made it through, but boy that 20lbs got heavier and heavier

 

Row – I made it to 100 meters each time

Wall climb hold – this was supposed to be a handstand hold, And I geared myself up for it, but I was a mental case and could not get myself to commit and go down for the handstand.  I opted for the wall climb hold.  It was a lot more difficult with all this extra weight on.  My last round , I thought my arms were going to snap.  They were shaking like crazy.

The 2nd workout was at the park down the street.

Walking lunges, suicide sprints, wall balls, mountain climbers.  All while dodging the goose droppings all over the place.

Have you ever had a moment when you realized that you changed?  For me, no matter what the size, I have always been self conscious.  If it thought something was too tight, or didn’t look good on me, I would not go out in it.  So, how did I know I ‘ve changed?

There I was – in my workout gear.  Rolls and fat and sweat and all.  Outside in public.  Busting my ass to complete the workout.

And not one shit was given.

I am finally in a place where I feel we are moving past this shitty year and resuming normal life. Rising above our challenges  is never easy.  But we cannot let it have the last word.  Shit happens.  Life Happens.   It’s how you chose to deal with it.  I choose to keep going.

What about you?  How do you handle it when shit happens?  Is it the end of the world? Do you move on?  How do you rise above?

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